Tuesday, December 28, 2010

All I Wanted

"And when the world treats you way too fairly, well it's a shame I'm a dream."

Speaking of dreams, I had a peculiar dream this morning where I was attempting to board a train but somehow managed to keep missing the trains. I boarded one train which went the wrong way and then met the guys from Tripod at a station when I departed the train. We then all attempted to board a few trains. When we finally managed to board a train heading in the correct direction I was awoken from my dream.

So anyway, Christmas has passed and I believe it is safe to say I was the best gift-giver of my family this year. I bought my father Nerf guns - amongst other things - for Christmas and we had quite a blast with them. We ganged up against my older sister and shot her, I snuck up on him whilst he was attempting to do the same to me and shot him in the back. We played Hungry, Hungry Hippos which was fabulous. 

I'm trying to rid my life of clutter - live more simply though spontaneously as well. I reactivated my Facebook account a couple days ago and I realised I spoke to barely a handful of people (and they, me) I have as friends on Facebook for the entire month my account was deactivated. What does this say about the people I consider friends? I guess I really don't form very meaningful relationships with people. I should work on that. I want to work on that but I don't think I really do want to. I don't want it enough to go out of my way, that's for sure.

So, this is my third post of the month. Obviously I haven't stuck to my "one post a day" goal. But that's fine by me. I really do not have enough to share with people to write on a daily basis. Once every week or so seems to be sufficient. If I happen to write more regularly than that, great!

I am yet to organise all my music. There is just so much of it. To be honest, I do not know where to start with it all - it's all pretty overwhelming. Perhaps I will just leave it as it is and allow the mess and disorganisation of my MP3's to rule my external hard drive. Eventually I will tidy it all up but for now... For now, I ignore it as best I can.

This is a very late post. I will finish it here and go to sleep. I have been very tired these last couple weeks. I have been feeling exhausted - luckily it doesn't seem to have effected my work. Just my focus and ability to function with everything else in life.

Tuesday, December 14, 2010

This Close

"I don't know who I am anymore. Not once in life have I been real, but I've never felt this close before."

It has been a strange past week. I've been feeling a bit ill on and off and I've been so tired - I'm finding it difficult to wake up most mornings. 

I copied some CDs onto my laptop today then synched my iPhone so I had some new music. It means I only have three albums on my phone at the moment but that's okay. Katy Perry, Eminem and Flyleaf are on my phone now. I will eventually sort out the other CDs I have and go through all my music to decide what I want on my phone but that probably won't happen for a while. That's okay though because I will probably be fixated of Flyleaf for a substantial period of time as I do most other bands.

I feel like dressing up as Snow-white. I do not know why but when I saw my hair today I suddenly thought of Snow-white and thought it would be very fun to dress up. Perhaps I should have a costume party, though there wouldn't be a reason as such for one. Then again, it is me. Do I ever really need a reason to do anything, especially if it is something strange. I'm pretty sure people expect strange things of me. They may be surprised by the things themselves but I'm pretty sure people are not surprised that I did/do them.

I have faces on my hands. They have pursed pink mouths and squinty black eyes. They are ever so slightly amusing. 

I do not have a lot to share this time around. Things are pretty much the same as ever. I am me, flowing through my day to day life, not really doing anything of consequence, not making any large impacts on lives that I know of. Perhaps I make an impact on my customers' lives without realising it. I suppose I shall never know.

I feel like watching Outrageous Fortune. The entire series. At once. I think I need a few days all to myself so I may do so. That would be awfully nice. And then I could finish watching Life on Mars... And rewatch Life... All fantastic TV series'.

Anyway, it is now time for me to shower and then sleep so that is what I shall now do. Work in the morning; I must remind myself to eat breakfast before I leave. I keep forgetting to eat and then wonder throughout the course of the day why I am so hungry. I really need to arrange food for myself for dinners when I get home in the evening. I wouldn't become so hungry if I did that as well...

Thursday, December 9, 2010

Set Apart This Dream

"And no one cries, screams or shouts."

So I haven't made a post in what must be almost two weeks now though I don't think it matters all that much. I'm pretty sure only two people read my posts anyway so it's not really a big deal. I do this more for myself than I do them anyway. 

So things have been going pretty well the last couple weeks. I treated myself to a bunch of DVDs and CDs and bought some new clothes as well. Not many clothes but a few. Enough for a nice little change of style for a little while. 

I want to steal my cable back from AJ so I can use my stereo to play my CDs in my room. I have a bunch of CDs that I haven't ripped to my computer yet so the music is not on my iPhone and this disappoints me. It is disappointing. I am disappointed.

I feel like writing a series of haikus now though I'm likely too lazy to do so. Also, I'm lazy. ;]

I'm definitely in a Flyleaf mood at the moment. Flyleaf is a fantastic band, no matter what their influences and themes. The compilations of their songs and the harmonies used are the kind I wish I could taste. I almost can, in fact. They feel amazing. 

I don't really have a whole lot to share this evening. Most of what is on my mind is to stay on my mind and mine only. Which is a slight burden but I don't mind all that much. I prefer my secrecy in my thoughts. I'm pretty sure that is a well known fact about me.

I have a busy weekend ahead of me. Many things to do, many events to attend. I'm not sure if I will be able to make everything I have arranged to attend though I certainly hope I can. I may just have to leave some places early/arrive late. I will work it out.

Eventually, I will work everything out.